No wonder :(

Patut laa awak tak text saya 1 day nie kn ? Awak tak kesah pon kn ? Padehal saya punye tggu text awk . Rupenye awk text dgn org laen  dua org sekali gus ! Wow ! Bagus betul. And laen kali kalau tanak text bgtau jgn buat org tertggu2. Hmm . terima kasih amir faizal .

Keep trying . Keep crying :(

Maisarah why you are too weak ? Why you are too stupid for doing those things before ? Now you get back what you did before ! You deserve it MAISARAH FAUDZI ! You are so cruel before this right ? You the one who started all over ! You the one who cheated ! So now why you are crying for your own old mistake ? Maisarah is so fuckin' bad and stupid ! He's the best for you but why can't you see it before ? Why you are so blind to see ? Why now ?! Why !!! There's no way you can get him back Maisarah! He's so away from you now . His heart was hurt and broken so badly ! Who did it if it's not you right ?!! You were just too late to get him back like before ! He has change ! And will never be the same ! REMEMBER that !

I'm crazy -,- saying "I'M SORRY" doesn't automatically fix everything. apologies can't fix a broken heart.

Saat wanita menangis, itu bukan bererti dia tidak berusaha menahannya tapi dia sudah tidak boleh untuk menahannya. 
Saat wanita membohongi perasaannya demi orang lain,sejujurnya saat itu juga hatinya menangis.
Setiap malam saya akan nangis bila saya teringat kat awak! Hmm.k da nangis pun. Semoga jodoh kita kuat. Saya tak pnh berhenti berdoa. Saya tau awak syg saya. 
I remember when we kissed I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember the simple things
I remember till I cry 
Have you ever noticed that the more special you treat someone, the more that someone takes you for granted?
They say laughter is the best medicine, but one thing's for sure: it doesn't heal a broken heart.
You're not my life, but you're the one I want to spend it with. You're not my world, but you're the best thing in it. And I wonder who and where the hell are YOU? ♥
Don't be too confident when someone tells you they like you. The real question is, until when? Because just like seasons, people change. #JustSaying :)
I'll remember him not as someone who broke my heart, But as the one who taught me how to live with a broken heart. ;')
I sit here and think about all the stupid stuff we've done together. I wouldn't want to be stupid with anyone else except you. D:
I've never said it out loud, but I love the guy,not in a romantic way, but in the way I love my friend who sees the world as I do. The one friend you don't have to explain things to because he feels the same way. The one friend who needs my shoulder as much as I need his. ♥

The worst pain for a girl is when she smiles, just to keep the tears from falling, and sleep, just so she doesn't have to think about it. :')

As long as we have memories, yesterday remained. As long as we have hope, tomorrow waits. As long as we have love, today is beautiful. ♥

What I think and wanted to say today -,-

staple with a feeling..i'm not ready to relate..im sorryy ? Hmm . Yeah I know ! You are just not ready yet to continued our relationship for now . But please don't make me wait for too long . I'm soo weak without you sayang :( I know you are beside me always . But I think you know what I mean right ? :'(

TODAY :D

Thanks amir faizal elias :) That's all I can say . You treat me  well . Thank you :) Even I don't deserve it :')

He changes . For sure :(

He is just changes :( He don't ever wait for me after school from now on :( Its hurt me a lot . After school , I 'll wait for him even I know that he'll not come . But I keep telling myself that he will come :( Why maisarah ? What is wrong with you ? Waiting for him to come is like waiting for rain on the summer I guess :(

My feeling -,-

Why I felt like he doesn't need me at all ? Like I need him ? :( The feelings when we are togerher is not the same .I felt like I was the one who love him much . But him ? I felt like I don;t know who he is . Like we never meet before . why ? Am I that bad before this sayang :( The saddest part isn't that with each passing day I feel like I need you more but it's the fact that you don't need me at all my dear :( But please :(( Don't ever erase me from your heart sayang :(

Yesterday -,-

Semalam . saya dan dia berbuka bersama di MEGAH SEAFOOD . Borak mcm biase and tibe tibe saya mntk phone dia and dia tanak bagi . Guess what ? sebab BELAMBAK sangat picture girls dlm tuu . I was soo touch ! sebab sejahat jahat saya pon dalam phone just ade one picture boy yg pernah ade cerita between us . Picture boys laen tuu sume kawan kelas sendri :( but him ? hmm . I dont check his inbox because he wanted me to respect his privacy I guess . But never mind I know who I am . Just her friend right ? -,- I was soo not in the mood to eat that time :( He's just changed :( I HATE CHANGES ! but what can I do . Its himself not mine . Like I said before time change people change :((( I wanted to cried that time . But I forced myself to hold it on . Because I don't wanted to be soo weak in front him :(

Amir Faizal Elias long ago :(

He'll be by my side . Whispering love words .Praising how lovely I looked . Fighting me over something . Coaxing me when ever i'm in the mood to be consoled . And even cuddling me when I cried over some silly things :( But its only LONG ago :( If just I could turn back the time :(

Do i still the chance to have you back ?

My friend said i do have that chance . But only 40 % over 100 % :( Why ?  Am i that bad ? OMG i can"t stand to cried everyday :( Everyday my tears is like waterfall :( kept fallen :( I kept thinking about you and her :( yaALLAh please help me :( give him back to me if he is mine and always be mine :( My friend all said to not to gave up trying to get him back , but i'm not strong enough like he is  :(( I'm only 17 y/o . too weak :( I need you right beside me always to be a strong person and gave me even little happiness for my life . You said you are here with me ? But you are not mine  sayang :(

Him . AF :(

Seriously , I just wanted you back ! The total of yourself ! The total of your heart ! I just wnated to have your love by my own :( Not sharing with other :( sharing LOVER is not caring sayang . I know I was the person to be blame at the first place . But please . give me 1 more chance :(( Just one more . I wish to fix all things back to normal including our relationship :( I know for now you just cannot accept me . But I never stop pray so that you can accept me back like before :( I just too in love with you amir faizal elias :(  I just hurt to hear that you said that you just wanted to be free for now . and don't wanted to settle down with anyone . Including me :( But its okeyy . i can wait for you . Because you has waited for me before this right ? so i think this is my turn to be waited for you :( Btw , thanks make me realize that i was so wrong that make you like this . But I seriously didn't mean it sayang . please .i begging you . you can say whatever you wanted but what i know now is I WANTED YOU BACK LIKE BEFORE . LIKE FIRST WE BE TOGETHER my bie <3

Long time from the last time I updated my blog :)

Okeyy . here's my story . He's just get back from PLKN on friday 29 July 2011 . And I was really damn happy ! But inside my happiness there's a pain hidden deep down inside right ?
Then , ofc after get back from the PLKN he will found someone else . And its hurt a lot , I has seen all his picture :( OMG ! its totally break my heart . Yeah i know I who the one start it all cheated thing ! But I  totally still need him and else :( We have been together for almost 2 years .
Hmm . if he choose that our relationship to be this way all , i had to accept it . I am just no one to say or stop him or even his feeling to love,like or dislike someone else . Right now, I felt just wanted to run far far far away from here ! Can i ? If you were I my shoes :(