Awak penat ? -,-

Awak pk awk sorg je penat ? Huh ! Mmg laa awk layak cakap awk penat ! Tapi jgn igt awk sdorg je penat ? Saya pon penat. Lagi tgh trial nie .Mane nk pk study . Mane nk pk atie and perasan sndri lg . Haishh -,- saya rase hidupawk skrg lg BAHAGIA berbanding saya awak tau ? Saya rase awk tak nmpk tuu sume . Yeah ! Saya nie sape je nk jealous . Nk saket hati or what so ever but please . I do have feelings . I tried to be what you wanted and tried to changes myself like you wanted . But what can I get from that ? What ? ! Nothing ? Hmm its okeyy . I guess . New things is always better for you right ? Old things is just like a stain that you want to erase !

His tagged photo !

Okeyy . Its hurt . I'm jealous ! I admit it :( His photo with his MANJE ! Huh !

Going out with him :)

Alright ! On Saturday . He fetch me at my father's house then we go to the nearest mcD tp had a lunch and after that Times square awaits us ! HEHE . He's driving a car :D whoaa . The best day ever ! Together with him <3 auww !

No wonder :(

Patut laa awak tak text saya 1 day nie kn ? Awak tak kesah pon kn ? Padehal saya punye tggu text awk . Rupenye awk text dgn org laen  dua org sekali gus ! Wow ! Bagus betul. And laen kali kalau tanak text bgtau jgn buat org tertggu2. Hmm . terima kasih amir faizal .

Keep trying . Keep crying :(

Maisarah why you are too weak ? Why you are too stupid for doing those things before ? Now you get back what you did before ! You deserve it MAISARAH FAUDZI ! You are so cruel before this right ? You the one who started all over ! You the one who cheated ! So now why you are crying for your own old mistake ? Maisarah is so fuckin' bad and stupid ! He's the best for you but why can't you see it before ? Why you are so blind to see ? Why now ?! Why !!! There's no way you can get him back Maisarah! He's so away from you now . His heart was hurt and broken so badly ! Who did it if it's not you right ?!! You were just too late to get him back like before ! He has change ! And will never be the same ! REMEMBER that !

I'm crazy -,- saying "I'M SORRY" doesn't automatically fix everything. apologies can't fix a broken heart.

Saat wanita menangis, itu bukan bererti dia tidak berusaha menahannya tapi dia sudah tidak boleh untuk menahannya. 
Saat wanita membohongi perasaannya demi orang lain,sejujurnya saat itu juga hatinya menangis.
Setiap malam saya akan nangis bila saya teringat kat awak! Hmm.k da nangis pun. Semoga jodoh kita kuat. Saya tak pnh berhenti berdoa. Saya tau awak syg saya. 
I remember when we kissed I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember the simple things
I remember till I cry 
Have you ever noticed that the more special you treat someone, the more that someone takes you for granted?
They say laughter is the best medicine, but one thing's for sure: it doesn't heal a broken heart.
You're not my life, but you're the one I want to spend it with. You're not my world, but you're the best thing in it. And I wonder who and where the hell are YOU? ♥
Don't be too confident when someone tells you they like you. The real question is, until when? Because just like seasons, people change. #JustSaying :)
I'll remember him not as someone who broke my heart, But as the one who taught me how to live with a broken heart. ;')
I sit here and think about all the stupid stuff we've done together. I wouldn't want to be stupid with anyone else except you. D:
I've never said it out loud, but I love the guy,not in a romantic way, but in the way I love my friend who sees the world as I do. The one friend you don't have to explain things to because he feels the same way. The one friend who needs my shoulder as much as I need his. ♥

The worst pain for a girl is when she smiles, just to keep the tears from falling, and sleep, just so she doesn't have to think about it. :')

As long as we have memories, yesterday remained. As long as we have hope, tomorrow waits. As long as we have love, today is beautiful. ♥

What I think and wanted to say today -,-

staple with a feeling..i'm not ready to relate..im sorryy ? Hmm . Yeah I know ! You are just not ready yet to continued our relationship for now . But please don't make me wait for too long . I'm soo weak without you sayang :( I know you are beside me always . But I think you know what I mean right ? :'(

TODAY :D

Thanks amir faizal elias :) That's all I can say . You treat me  well . Thank you :) Even I don't deserve it :')

He changes . For sure :(

He is just changes :( He don't ever wait for me after school from now on :( Its hurt me a lot . After school , I 'll wait for him even I know that he'll not come . But I keep telling myself that he will come :( Why maisarah ? What is wrong with you ? Waiting for him to come is like waiting for rain on the summer I guess :(

My feeling -,-

Why I felt like he doesn't need me at all ? Like I need him ? :( The feelings when we are togerher is not the same .I felt like I was the one who love him much . But him ? I felt like I don;t know who he is . Like we never meet before . why ? Am I that bad before this sayang :( The saddest part isn't that with each passing day I feel like I need you more but it's the fact that you don't need me at all my dear :( But please :(( Don't ever erase me from your heart sayang :(

Yesterday -,-

Semalam . saya dan dia berbuka bersama di MEGAH SEAFOOD . Borak mcm biase and tibe tibe saya mntk phone dia and dia tanak bagi . Guess what ? sebab BELAMBAK sangat picture girls dlm tuu . I was soo touch ! sebab sejahat jahat saya pon dalam phone just ade one picture boy yg pernah ade cerita between us . Picture boys laen tuu sume kawan kelas sendri :( but him ? hmm . I dont check his inbox because he wanted me to respect his privacy I guess . But never mind I know who I am . Just her friend right ? -,- I was soo not in the mood to eat that time :( He's just changed :( I HATE CHANGES ! but what can I do . Its himself not mine . Like I said before time change people change :((( I wanted to cried that time . But I forced myself to hold it on . Because I don't wanted to be soo weak in front him :(

Amir Faizal Elias long ago :(

He'll be by my side . Whispering love words .Praising how lovely I looked . Fighting me over something . Coaxing me when ever i'm in the mood to be consoled . And even cuddling me when I cried over some silly things :( But its only LONG ago :( If just I could turn back the time :(

Do i still the chance to have you back ?

My friend said i do have that chance . But only 40 % over 100 % :( Why ?  Am i that bad ? OMG i can"t stand to cried everyday :( Everyday my tears is like waterfall :( kept fallen :( I kept thinking about you and her :( yaALLAh please help me :( give him back to me if he is mine and always be mine :( My friend all said to not to gave up trying to get him back , but i'm not strong enough like he is  :(( I'm only 17 y/o . too weak :( I need you right beside me always to be a strong person and gave me even little happiness for my life . You said you are here with me ? But you are not mine  sayang :(

Him . AF :(

Seriously , I just wanted you back ! The total of yourself ! The total of your heart ! I just wnated to have your love by my own :( Not sharing with other :( sharing LOVER is not caring sayang . I know I was the person to be blame at the first place . But please . give me 1 more chance :(( Just one more . I wish to fix all things back to normal including our relationship :( I know for now you just cannot accept me . But I never stop pray so that you can accept me back like before :( I just too in love with you amir faizal elias :(  I just hurt to hear that you said that you just wanted to be free for now . and don't wanted to settle down with anyone . Including me :( But its okeyy . i can wait for you . Because you has waited for me before this right ? so i think this is my turn to be waited for you :( Btw , thanks make me realize that i was so wrong that make you like this . But I seriously didn't mean it sayang . please .i begging you . you can say whatever you wanted but what i know now is I WANTED YOU BACK LIKE BEFORE . LIKE FIRST WE BE TOGETHER my bie <3

Long time from the last time I updated my blog :)

Okeyy . here's my story . He's just get back from PLKN on friday 29 July 2011 . And I was really damn happy ! But inside my happiness there's a pain hidden deep down inside right ?
Then , ofc after get back from the PLKN he will found someone else . And its hurt a lot , I has seen all his picture :( OMG ! its totally break my heart . Yeah i know I who the one start it all cheated thing ! But I  totally still need him and else :( We have been together for almost 2 years .
Hmm . if he choose that our relationship to be this way all , i had to accept it . I am just no one to say or stop him or even his feeling to love,like or dislike someone else . Right now, I felt just wanted to run far far far away from here ! Can i ? If you were I my shoes :(

2 months and half :(

On 15 mei 2011 :( new beginning . He's gone for 2 monhts half for PLKN. Can't stand to crying . Will miss him soooo and too much ! never been away from him. even just for a week ! How can I live without you been away ? :((

You !

okeyy fine . aku salah . aku buat hal . aku penyebab ! tapo perlu kee kau buat tuu semua !? perlu ke kau buat aku jeles ? perlu ke kau tunjuk kau ade GF baruu ? senang kn kau dpt yg baru ? sng kn kau buat <3 kt perempuan laen ? senang kn ? Yeah i know i was wrong at the first place . But ! ade aku buat kau saket hati or jeles smpai mcm ape aku rase skrg nie ? yee kite dh tkde ape ape . but please ! do understand how i feel . Smlm kau tgk aku time kawad daerah . and DIA ade jgk kt situu . and lalu dpn aku ngan kau tp ade aku lyan ? Aku sanggup bia DIA tgk kau dgn aku ? semate2 sbb aku nk jge hati kau ! Sbb ape aku nk jge hati kau  ? Sbb aku still sayang kau okeyy ? Tp kau ? huii BAHAGIA saje kn ? I and YOU lg . P U I H ! huh ! Kau ckp aku mcm2 . aku bahagia ape sume . Kau tau ke aku bahagia ? Nmpk luaran MMG ! sume org boleyy ckp aku nmpk mcm tkde PROBLEM ! but THE TRUTH ? people don't even know . and You also don't know ! I hate this kind of situation ! and I hate people keep talking about how I feel ! PLEASE ! stop talking about me and him if you don't know the situation between us !

Kawad kawad kawad -,-

Haishh , okeyy ! Kawad sekolah next week , khamis .7 april . Kawad daerah 12 april -,- Org still tk cukup . Diorg kawad pon ntah pape lg . haduyyyyy . pening ! sempat ke nk training utk daerha nie ? haishh . tlg laaa yaALLAH . rase mcm mlu je nk msuk daerah . Kt sane confirm2 laa sume yg bagus2 je kn . Dala first time msuk daerah nie . Kalau stakat kawad individu tuu boleyy crite . Nie nk kne ajar satu team . Dgn budak yg tk bg komitmen . Mcm mne laa nk settle masalh mcm nie ? Dh bebel hari2 pon still same . Dh bg denda pon still mcm tuu jgk . Hari2 nk kne ajar bnde yg same . Smpai bile nk PERFECT mcm tuu ?

Hockey Team :)

On 21 march 2011 : sekolah hanta team hoki wakil skola for the first time :) Then , kt sane ade 2 team hoki skola je kteorg kne lawan . Team perempuan ade 2 goal kepper . But for the first game i'm not the keeper . Coach trust org laen nk jd keeper just because tk dtg training before2 nie . Haish -,- Alahh kalau datang pon mcm tunggul je SI BUNCIT *coach tuu buat . For the first game lawan smks 18 . so the score is 7-0 We lost ! And for the second game i played :) *keeper ! And alhamdulillah 2-0 even we lost but at least not 7-0 okeyy :D

OKeyy now pasal kau pulak !

Yang kau nk pandang aku KEREK apehal ? Masalah aku ngan kawan kau tuu ade KENA MENGENA ngan kau ke pompuan ? Tkde kn ? So SHUT UP ! Berani cakap belakang jeh ? Cakap depan tanak ? Sbb ape ? Takut ? Ouh please . Aku lg suke kau cakap depan aku . tp kau pengecut kn ? Alaaahai kalau setakat BF kau tuu ? Igt akuu kesah ? Siket pon tk HADAP laa weyy . So , as the conclusion . Please see me and TALK infront ! DON'T TALK BACK COWARD :)

Miss my blog :)

Lame tk update rse laen mcm plak . Hmm , okeyy . nk cite ape eh ?

okeyy , on my birthday 7 march  , Monday . Balik skola tuu pegi serambi . Celebrate ngan kawan-kawan kesayangan :) And ORANG TERSAYANG jgk . And guess what ? Dapat present yg tk penah t'fikir pon akn dpt dri DIA :) And really speechless . But so thankful sayang :) Hope next year dapat celebrate samesame jgk lg :)

Kredit ouh kredit :(

Tkde kredit sangatt laa membosankn :( I miss you bie :( Tktau keadaan bie mcm mne . Keje balek pukul brape . Gy keje pukul brape . Hmm, dh mkn ke blm . Hmmmm , mama nie pon satu mtk kredit ponnnn dh bising . Haduyyyai .

Never ever trust you again !

Sekarang nak tengok muka kau pon aku menyampah ! Sakit je hati nie . Nk ckp dengan kau pon aku tanak kalau boley ... arghh !

Thanks for give it to other .

Okeyy , i gave it to you because i wanted too see you wearing it . maybe its not expensive or branded to you . But for me i wanted too see you wearing it but just now i just see your sister wearing it . Yeah maybe for you its okeyy .but please , its hurt my feeling a bit . What if you give me a things but i gave to others to use it ? !

Grenade for me ? Ouch , it's too much .

Okey , even though is my fault as you said so !
all MY FAULT ! you are the one who RIGHT ! but i think the lyrics is harsh ! Don't compare me with the girl in that song . I'm not the one how you want to blame ? Okeyy FINE ! THANKs . i'll accept that !
but please don't say anything over the limit ! Jgn tuduh bkn2 ! Kalau nk kate pasal ''LIKE'' tuu bole kate sume org punye status sy like ! tuu pon nk jd stupid issues ! hmm , bnde dh okeyy before nie tp sbb pasal comment KOSONG tuu pon bole jd gado mcm tsunami . hmmm -,- pleasee do understand ! JUST FRIEND ! i think you can see it ! Just think , i already tired to think about all this . Jgn pk awk sorg je penat ! Sy yg kne salah nie pon penatttttt sgt ! mane nk pk homework lg , problem nie lg . huh ! -,-

Grenade Lyrics

Grenade Lyrics: "Bruno Mars Grenade lyrics in the Doo - Wops & Hooligans Album. These Grenade lyrics are performed by Bruno Mars Get the music video and song lyrics here. Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give Should"

Grenade Lyrics

Grenade Lyrics: "Bruno Mars Grenade lyrics in the Doo - Wops & Hooligans Album. These Grenade lyrics are performed by Bruno Mars Get the music video and song lyrics here. Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give Should"

Relatioonship status ; UNKNOWN :(

hmm , it happen again , but now idk what our relationship is :(
please , listen to my explanation for the last time . You don't know what happen actually . But you already make your own decision :( But if that's what you wanted too be , i respect your decision and just keep my explanation on my own . Its hurt for the second time . but I do believe kalau ade jodoh tk kemane kn ? :(

Homework !

okeyy , setiap mggu homework mcm gunung ! lagi lagi BM ! haishh , tk penah tkde . dalaa bg skali byk . TENSION ! SPM ! HAHA . cepat laa sikett SPM niee abes , senang hati .